Yesterday I saw Betsy was doing a link up of posts about a time where you felt beautiful, I thought it was just a wonderful idea and could not wait to write up my post. Which I did about four times in my head, each one though was just not right somehow so I thought I would look through some old pictures and see if one had caught a moment where I was feeling beautiful.
See and that is what has me caught up because looking beautiful is so different than feeling beautiful isn’t it. I found all sorts of pictures of myself in different hair colors, weights, places, and ages and for each of those categories I was able to find pictures that I thought I looked beautiful in.
However how many was I feeling beautiful in, while the picture was taken was I sucking in my stomach or trying to hide my arms? And now I had hit roadblock number two because was I trying to find a moment I felt physically beautiful in or that I felt like a beautiful person, that my inner beauty was coming through?
I really do believe that a person can be beautiful or ugly from the inside out but merely having a pretty exterior does not a beautiful person make.
With all of that in mind I went back through the pictures and realized that on my graduation day I felt beautiful inside and out. I was the first college graduate in my family and being able to have that day for myself and my family was so wonderful.
In all the pictures of the day I have that same huge smile on my face, my mom actually has this picture on a mug and framed in her office.
One reason I think this day meant and means so much to me and I associate it with beauty is because I really felt validated in myself that day. Like most women I have had my bouts of insecurities but for the most part have liked how I looked and have often been complimented on physical aspects of myself.
I however have always had huge insecurities in terms of being smart, honestly just on Sunday when I was talking with my mom she had to remind me not to put myself down in that capacity. So when I graduated college, which was something that no one else could take credit for or take away from me since I had done all the work, I felt like part of that final piece of me was starting to fall into place.
I know now it is becoming more prominent that we should compliment girls on things other than being pretty which I hugely support because while at 28 I can have confidence in my physical appearance I would also like to be able to think of myself as being beautiful because I am smart.
What are you thoughts on being beautiful?