Since our move it seems that each night I get in bed and either talk with Mr. H for a bit or read, well most nights both because reading in bed is one of life’s great pleasures, and then I think my eyelids are heavy and head sleepy. So the lights go out and Mr. H is quietly snoring next to me and then I am wide awake. More awake then I was when I woke up that morning, more awake then after the strong coffee I drank for breakfast, just awake awake awake.
This is of course the time when crazy thoughts start to creep in, and by crazy I do not mean like I hear voices (OMG if I did hear a voice like someone coming into the house that would be some scary shit) but things like I wonder where we will live when Mr. H is done with school and I wonder exactly when my best friend will have her baby. I cannot control any of those things so they wear on me so I think to myself stop crazy thinking lets be practical, which does not help because planning our next weeks meals while staring at the ceiling around midnight just adds to being more awake.
These goes on for what feels like ages before I am so frustrated that I am now thinking about what kind of job my now 11 yr old brother will have when he is done with college I just want to get up and scream.
I do not though I try a few things, one is praying and while you will be hard pressed to get me to talk about my personal religious beliefs just know I am doing some general praying and be happy, the next is counting backwards from 100 which I read about on a blog and it actually is quite relaxing, after that I figure hell with it I am going to think about whatever I want.
The great thing is though it seems all of a sudden I am waking up in the morning not knowing which thing it was that put me to sleep but I would like to have it happen a bit easier. For as long as I can remember I have had trouble sleeping in new places so I am sure this will past soon but if you have sleeping issues what do you do?