Since I have moved to Sweden I feel my emotional level has been raised to a red alert level. Things I could do without another thought back home are filled with so much emotion here it can be exhausting. We have now been here for 8 months and things are getting easier but some things still fill me with fear that I never thought would.
I am fearful of going to get my hair cut lest what I want be lost in translation and I come out looking horrible. I could always bring Mr. H but I also fear what his boy translation would be and coming out a whole other sort of horrible. So I have been cutting and dying my hair at home, which I would often do in California but now my hair is getting really long and I think soon needs a professional.
I am fearful of taking out the trash, which sounds so crazy typing it out but Sweden has a great recycling program and therefore there are about 10 different types of trash cans in the trash area. So I am afraid I will go to throw something out, put it in the wrong bin and a stranger will yell at me.
I am fearful of buying alcohol by myself. This one actually has an easy fix, I need to get a Swedish ID, but for now I have to use my passport and I am always worried they will deny me which would be so embarrassing!
I am fearful of getting my mom and my grandma from the airport all by myself next week. It would be a 2 hr train ride by myself and then getting them on the right train and then bus to our house with all their luggage. I so hope Mr. H can get the day off!
I know that no matter where you live things can be scary and fear filled but at times I wish silly things like this would not get to me. I guess with time they will fall away as I get more comfortable with living in Sweden. Since that is the main thing with moving away it does not all fall into place at once, it takes time to build up a new life in a foreign land.